You think everything should be about matter, with atomic number of one and greater. Why are you so afraid of zero? Why does it torment you so? Why shouldn't everything start with light – massless, and maximally length contracted and time dilated? You think everything should be about science. Why not about mathematics? You think everything should be about the senses. Why not about reason and logic? Should the scientific method start with exercising the senses or exercising reason? What kind of "rational" subject begins by claiming that something else – sensing – is more important than reasoning? Welcome to science!
Science told you a story about sensory stuff. And you believed it. Why shouldn't concepts be truer than percepts? Why shouldn't mind be truer than matter? Why shouldn't reality be a self-solving intellect rather than a lurching, mindless body, blind and dumb? Why are you so scared of belonging to a smart universe? Why do you prefer reality to be stupid? What does that say about you?
Why is eternal and necessary mind rejected in favor of temporal and contingent matter? Why is a priori thinking rejected in favor of a posteriori sensing?
Why shouldn't light be the master of the show? The light of reason. Light is reason. It's the carrier of the cosmic intellect.
Do you have good reasons for what you believe? Do you really even know what you believe?
Why shouldn't mathematics have an ontology? Why shouldn't mathematics exist as light, as waves, as dimensionless sinusoids with zero mass and atomic number zero? Why are you so horrified by reality being made of mathematics, existing as light?
There is only one subject that has the capacity to provide a definitive answer to existence. That's mathematics. All the rest is shinola.
Are you interested in the very biggest ideas? Most people are not. Eleanor Roosevelt said, “Great minds discuss ideas; average minds discuss events; small minds discuss people.” Social media is awash with gossip about people and reaction to events. Big ideas are entirely absent. If you want access to the biggest ideas of all – those concerning the precise nature of fundamental existence – you may be interested in the work of myself and my collaborators.