"Ever since I was a teenager (over 20 years ago) I had gained comfort from the idea of being looked after, controlled if you will, by a strong woman. Not necessarily someone physically strong - just one who was able to 'control' me and look out for my best interests, whatever she perceived them to be. Those teenage thoughts had developed gradually over time into a desire to be looked after totally,..just as a small child or baby would be. I wanted someone to make every decision for me, feed me, dress me, put me to bed etcetera."