If I Let You Go: The Heartbreaking, Shocking Richard and Judy Book Club Pick

· Mantle · Narrated by Maxine Peake
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A Richard and Judy Book Club pick, If I Let You Go is a darkly comic tale of searing loss, coercive control and the consequences of taking the wrong path.

'Simultaneously tragic and uplifting . . . Charlotte Levin is SUCH a clever writer' - Ruth Jones, author of Love Untold


Every morning, Janet Brown goes to work cleaning offices. It calms her – cleanliness, neatness. All the things she’s unable to do with her soul can be achieved with a damp cloth and a splash of bleach. However the guilt she still carries, about a devastating loss that happened eleven years ago, cannot be erased.

When Janet finds herself involved in a train crash, she recognizes her chance to do what she couldn’t all those years ago. And she makes a decision. As news spreads of Janet’s actions, her story inspires everyone around her and, for the first time, her life has purpose. Her future is filled with hope.

But Janet's story isn't quite what it seems. And, as events spiral out of control, she soon discovers that coming clean isn't an option. Because if Janet washes away the lies, what long-buried truths will she finally have to face?

If I Let You Go by Charlotte Levin is a deeply moving and compelling portrayal of a woman coming to terms with loss.

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5.0
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Mark Lucock
March 5, 2023
Exceptional. A rare thing,a book that is not dirivative or expected in any way. Darkly brilliant, kept me up later than expected,to be consumed in large gulps , superb characterisation, the trade mark of the author as well as a strong vein of black humour. As a big reader it's very refreshing to find that occasional book that takes over your world. Highly recommend. Perfect audio performance by Maxine Peake,real feel, couldn't have been better cast,and unfair amount of talent, perfect.
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About the author

Charlotte Levin has been shortlisted for the Andrea Badenoch Award, part of the Northern Writers’ Awards, and for the Mslexia Short Story Competition. Charlotte lives in Manchester and If I Can't Have You was her debut novel.

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